where I want to say exactly what I think/feel. That will only get me in trouble; no, actually it would annoy me. Because people would be all up in my shit and I don't need or want them there. I just want to say stuff out loud. You can't say stuff out loud - so effing annoying. I'm going to explode with all the stuff I can't say. The see-saw of it all. Do I want anyone to really know me? Yes/No? Nice to be able to just dump it all out in the world and say "There. Finally. Take or it leave it"